I saw this blog post today. I have identified with this and in some ways still do. Prayer does not come natural for me, yes, as a pastor, it does not. It does when I am leading as a pastor, but not in my private life. It has changed over time and it is better but it needs more. I meet with pastors all the time that struggle with prayer.
Each Friday, I meet with a few pastors, and we spend time talking about our week and then steep ourselves into prayer. This has changed my life. I know it will continue to change and shape my life. As I tell my kids in confirmation, prayer can be a simple “thank you”. But we still need to actually do it, to be in conversation with God.
Read this wonderful blog post for some greater insight.